I went out last night with friends, one I have known for 20 years, the other maybe 15years and we chat and chat all night. It's so nice to catch up and hear whats going on in each others lives and it kind of makes me feel a fraud for worrying so much about my own problems.

One friend has her dream job and is so scared that she's not going to make a success of it that she's paranoid about EVERYTHING. I also fear that she's not eating and the ironic thing is that all of the worrying about work is making her not eat and that could ultimately be the factor which costs her the job... It's such a difficult situation and I really worry about her but at the same time I admire how she strives for success and works so hard... but has her ambition been her downfall???

The other friend is getting married next month and oddly she just doesn't seem that excited/bothered about it!! It appears as though she's going through with it because she thinks this is the route she should take i.e. boyfriend/wedding/house/kids/BOREDOM!!! This is her one and only boyfriend and the thought of marrying someone without experiencing any different fills me with horror... I would so want to be sampling some other delights before settling down with someone for the rest of my life (that of course is the fairytale version anyway!!!)

Speaking of which, B is working away at the moment and apart from late night texts yesterday asking if I would go and stay with him tonight (which I said I couldn't) it has been very quiet really. Think it's probably for the best though, especially as I will be going on holiday in 3 weeks and will then be without my mobile for 2 weeks... don't know how I will cope. That will be the longest time without any contact... HELP!!!!>:(