Well the end of another weekend... back to the hell hole tomorrow... It's so depressing to be wishing the weeks away but I just can't help it. This is what worries me, I'm 25 and already I'm feeling like this and the sad thing is that I know it's only me who can turn things around and change my life for the better. One day at a time though...!
Had fun with the friends, but as predicted the smugness really got under my skin. However after the wedding album, DVD and honeymoon picture slide show we did have fun and they are so lovely and a brilliant couple. Also as predicted had the constant disease of phone checking, every 2 minutes looking to see if there are any text messages from B...
I keep my phone on silent for messages at all time so to not arouse any suspicion. Last night was very quiet, I get so annoyed when he texts me, I reply and then he doesn't answer me after that... I know he was up to something. I hope that he was just with the wife but I'm so paranoid that what he's doing with me is also being relayed with some other poor girl, who I'm guessing doesn't realise that he's married and actually thinks that he's in love with her. I don't know why it should bother me because I know I have no control or hold over him but somehow it really does get to me. 
I really suspect that if he's getting away with our activities then he must be up to more of the same with others??? 
I'm really wanting to see him at the moment, it seems like so long since we last had any fun together... the constant text teasing is really not enough!!!
